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aliceylain) wrote2013-09-01 07:06 pm
aliceylain) wrote2013-09-01 07:06 pm
it's like a hundred thousand voices that just can't sing
I have been in a fandom creative slump for around two years and it's started to drive me nuts.
I used to be mildly creative and I seems to have lost that temporarily. When I was in the Harry Potter fandom, I wrote a little fanfiction, maintained a couple of websites, and helped out with FictionAlley. When I was in the Prince of Tennis fandom, I wrote a ton of fanfiction, did some comics, and role-played some. When I was in the One Piece fandom, I wrote a little fanfiction, did some comics, and role-played a ton. And even until recently, I was doing comics, whether they were fandom-related or not.
But a couple of months ago, something switched off in me and I stopped doing comics. I've been struggling with some Utena fanfiction for ages but haven't gotten much anywhere. In short, I just feel stuck. I don't feel particularly part of any fandom and haven't for around two years. I mean, I though Community was going to be my next thing but that didn't pan out. Same with Doctor Who. I'm at loose ends and I'm not even creating anything anymore. I'm just blindly consuming without any sort of dialogue with any other fans. Where did my dialogue go?
I don't know if I'm going to get my drive to create back anytime soon, which saddening to think about. I just don't feel anchored in any sort of fandom. There are series that I enjoy, sure, but I'm not entrenched in them. I want to be entrenched again but I don't know how to consciously do that. Before, it's always felt that I just feel into a fandom without even trying. Maybe part of this is because fandom seems to have moved mainly to twitter and tumblr, where communication isn't always the easiest. Maybe part of this is because I'm older and have other interests taking up my attention (gardening, cooking). Maybe part of this is that I'm more reluctant to blindly reach out to people nowadays. Or maybe it's some other undefinable thing that's holding me back. I just wish I could fall into a fandom again and feel that spark.
Does anyone else feel like this? Does anyone have any suggestions?
I used to be mildly creative and I seems to have lost that temporarily. When I was in the Harry Potter fandom, I wrote a little fanfiction, maintained a couple of websites, and helped out with FictionAlley. When I was in the Prince of Tennis fandom, I wrote a ton of fanfiction, did some comics, and role-played some. When I was in the One Piece fandom, I wrote a little fanfiction, did some comics, and role-played a ton. And even until recently, I was doing comics, whether they were fandom-related or not.
But a couple of months ago, something switched off in me and I stopped doing comics. I've been struggling with some Utena fanfiction for ages but haven't gotten much anywhere. In short, I just feel stuck. I don't feel particularly part of any fandom and haven't for around two years. I mean, I though Community was going to be my next thing but that didn't pan out. Same with Doctor Who. I'm at loose ends and I'm not even creating anything anymore. I'm just blindly consuming without any sort of dialogue with any other fans. Where did my dialogue go?
I don't know if I'm going to get my drive to create back anytime soon, which saddening to think about. I just don't feel anchored in any sort of fandom. There are series that I enjoy, sure, but I'm not entrenched in them. I want to be entrenched again but I don't know how to consciously do that. Before, it's always felt that I just feel into a fandom without even trying. Maybe part of this is because fandom seems to have moved mainly to twitter and tumblr, where communication isn't always the easiest. Maybe part of this is because I'm older and have other interests taking up my attention (gardening, cooking). Maybe part of this is that I'm more reluctant to blindly reach out to people nowadays. Or maybe it's some other undefinable thing that's holding me back. I just wish I could fall into a fandom again and feel that spark.
Does anyone else feel like this? Does anyone have any suggestions?
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