a terrible thought has moved into my mind
Dec. 2nd, 2014 09:13 pmAnother quiet day. I had the discouraging thought today that no one talks to me on their own volition unless it's about work-related stuff. I don't think that would bother me so much if I didn't sit across from a co-worker whom EVERYBODY in the office adores. She usually has at least three visitors a day to see her and gab about silly stuff. She's very nice so I don't begrudge her her popularity but...well. You know. I didn't butt into her conversations with her friends, which I usually do, so another quiet day.
I shouldn't be sad about this because it's not like I'm the only one who doesn't have people come by to talk about non-work things. I need to keep that in mind. Also, I really need to stop comparing myself to others. That way lies madness, I KNOW this because I've been struggling with that particular form of madness all my life.
Did my running today. I know that I mentioned this past spring that I took up running and I'm still at it amazingly. I even joined a gym, something I thought I would never, ever, EVER do. To be honest, I joined it because once the time changed back in November, I couldn't go running outside after work anymore. Even if I could deal with the cold, it's certainly not safe to run outside at night. The gym is okay and relatively cheap and I'm not locked into a contract so I can quit when the time changes back next April. I've also picked up some very limited weight training, just with my stomach muscles and hip muscles.
I'm pretty pleased that I've been able to keep up with the running. I'm not fast and I don't run for long, but I'm still at it. I have also begun to MAYBE see the glimmerings of what people mean by a runner's high. I definitely run the best on the weekend because I go running in the morning when I've got the most energy and am feeling the most alert. I feel stronger too, although I'm pretty sure I haven't lost any weight since I love to eat too much. But I've got some muscles forming and like I said, I feel stronger. It's a really good feeling even if it might only be in my head and not a reality.
I shouldn't be sad about this because it's not like I'm the only one who doesn't have people come by to talk about non-work things. I need to keep that in mind. Also, I really need to stop comparing myself to others. That way lies madness, I KNOW this because I've been struggling with that particular form of madness all my life.
Did my running today. I know that I mentioned this past spring that I took up running and I'm still at it amazingly. I even joined a gym, something I thought I would never, ever, EVER do. To be honest, I joined it because once the time changed back in November, I couldn't go running outside after work anymore. Even if I could deal with the cold, it's certainly not safe to run outside at night. The gym is okay and relatively cheap and I'm not locked into a contract so I can quit when the time changes back next April. I've also picked up some very limited weight training, just with my stomach muscles and hip muscles.
I'm pretty pleased that I've been able to keep up with the running. I'm not fast and I don't run for long, but I'm still at it. I have also begun to MAYBE see the glimmerings of what people mean by a runner's high. I definitely run the best on the weekend because I go running in the morning when I've got the most energy and am feeling the most alert. I feel stronger too, although I'm pretty sure I haven't lost any weight since I love to eat too much. But I've got some muscles forming and like I said, I feel stronger. It's a really good feeling even if it might only be in my head and not a reality.